Year plan

Sunday, January 08, 2006

NEW YEAR'S PLAN
it's already 2006 now.

right, not a call again but i'm alrite, at least i m not miserable any more past the new yr.today just feel terrible after having a chat with my sister, feel terribly shame on myself. decided to work it out as one of my new yr's plans.

i thought i was alrite but something triggered me and i gone mad in the end. lead to a thought abt the value of this relationship, extraordinarily calm but hasn't come into any conclusion yet, frustrated though.

OK..here we go my new yr's plan:

• most important to love my mother by every means, CANNOT treat her impolitely, MUST be patient to her and support her always. ( yeahay.. i think i get this done!! though sometimes I still can't tolerate mom's "mumming", but so far after we are living back together again, i believe we are getting better than before I leave!)
• to be independent, not in a way to escape from mom's control but to show her that i m already grown up and she need not worry about me. ( um...not too sure about this, since living with mom again, she just insists to handle all the household stuff, and since now just the two of us, we dun really have cookery to do at all, thus I am real lazy at home, what a shame! But one thing I noticed is that mom seems worry more about me when I was hanging out late, maybe I was out of a relationship and she knows that no one will bring me homeeeeeeee...)
• to be independent, in the relationship, if there is still one. stop being miserable over some stupid reactions that received. accept the fact and look ahead. to love myself more so as to reduce the pressure and balance thing out. should always find ways to make myself happy in a relationship. ( well, no way to comment on this right now...maybe only "accept the fact and look ahead" still applicable on my current situation )
• work hard, save money, financial plan ( well this bothers me, I am just too number-phobic, I really wanna get this done, but seems just can't get into the right track. When seeing people around are actively participating into the stock market, or investing sth, or even achieving some goals already, I just feel I'm too far behind them. My number-phobic made me no way to understand how these are working, maybe I can just be those type of person that work and save money in a bank and getting profit just out of those unremarkable interest. I can never be like others who can always keep an eye on the stock market and selling and buying and gain money easily!! Also, once a fortune teller told me that I can never have those kind of luck that gaining big money without paying effort! OH... I SHOULD ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I CAN NEVER BE A MILLIONAIRE!! anyway, I think I will start looking into investing in some funds...) (ps. I am not so into fortune telling thing, just once a friend's uncle give me some advice, for free 贈我兩句！)
  
• learn how to cook from my mom, cook without a recipe, have the recipe already remembered by heart during cooking ( forget about this... even my mom haven't really cooked since I come back!)
• enjoy life and spend time happier. spice up every week by dinning out and meeting friends at least once or prepare a nice dinner for myself or family during weekends..... though i know i can never be those type of person, but dream to be flirty is quite nice...... ( being good on this...constantly going out with old friends...for new friends, still a bit anti-social sometimes...well, so far so gd la...)
• this is real difficult...but wish i can be tidier like in such a way that my room is always ready to welcome guests ( TOTAL FAILURE!)
• ......(that's all i can think of by now)

posted by wai at 11:49 PM

Alright then, should plan for what I should do in the remaining half year! worry how long will I take and seriously get it done~