Can u see my future?
this two terms :"虎頭蛇尾" + "寂寞" are keep struggling me these days.......i guess that's the PMS but it's just still sustaining till now...put me in deep depression...."虎頭蛇尾" is the character that derived from my drawing of a tree in the last lesson...the teacher is somewhat like a psychologist and he spent the whole lesson showing his skills, on our request, to look into our character. I did 反省after that and realize that's just so true.... i can never finish a book; i start off tidying my room a bit but then it still remain in a mess at the end of the day; i start doing my homework, completed some but then end up didn't hand in coz there's still one or two incomplete.....there r just lots to prove that i m such a 虎頭蛇尾person....and this can be reflected at work too....... for no doubt i guess others in my workplace may have already noticed this......
the goal that i should achieve nx yr is to be having an outstanding work performance...... isn't this like joking....i can't see how can i achieve that...
and then "寂寞" strike me suddenly, feel like i've got no one and in turn no one needs me..... and with this loneliness, i collapsed one night and can't help crying till late......
and the question " what's the motivation of my life?" keep calling out from my mind......
i need an answer....
i know i must do sth to improve myself....but i can't find the motivation.....what can i do?
here comes another word my sister once mentioned...................
"LOSER"
posted by wai @ 12:56 am
