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Tuesday, October 07, 2008

TWO MONTHS FOR ALL THESE NEW EXPERIENCES

I'm not really talking abt experiences. I'm talking abt things that happened within these 2 months which never even happened before in my life.

Mom had surgery done...really really big surgery i guess. Thanks god for the improvement of surgical techniques nowadays that i believe mom's not in really great suffer. Of course she's still in need of lotta rest for her recovery till now, but i'm pleased to see that there's not much trauma caused to her. Now's just waiting for the follow up to reveal wat's the thing taken out is ...i hope it's not malignant n that's all for the worries induced to mom.

Because of the surgery, once again this recall how awful my relatives of my dad's side are. THEY JUST WARE FAKE MASK. EVERY ONE OF THEM. There's nothing about 親情btw us n them. Actually that's wat my sis n I realized n accepted since a long time ago, so we dun even feel disappointted any more on how they've treated us. It's just my mom who's always feeling upset n get really annoyed on their attitude. I wish one day my mom can let go...but this is difficult i know.

Because of the surgery, for one moment i believe my mom & dad's relationship is gonna improved...but thanks to those jerk they r now just back to the stage like the time before.... n i guess it's difficult to push it back to harmony now..... I HATE THOSE PEOPLE....i guess all the 風波can only be settled only when they disappeared one by one.....suck~

I'm like trapping into the dilemma n can hardly pull my legs out. Too many uncertainty...i guess i dun hv enough courage to end the mistake. Perhaps I m doing harm to myself n to those involved....but every time when i try to step out...something...maybe emotions, maybe loneliness just pull me in again...n again.... I tried many times to stop this ...n the nx time i hope i'll succeed.

OKAY~ i'm digging in my first design project since i've finished the course. I'm designing the wedding invitation n related stuff for my friend. I dunno y she trusted me but anyway, I'll do my best n I hope the things come out will be appreciated. Actually that's not really my design, we just pop into those card shops n saw a lovely card...but then if we let the shop to design the cost is too much to afford, so i'm just trying to do a similar template n just bring it for printout... anyway... that's my first task..for free of course. Maybe after this i can have some freelance job ...haaa i hope so~

And I'll be helping out in her wedding, too~ This is the first time I was invited to become 姊妹.... n my friend is arranging her wedding very seriously, she's making every bits of her wedding as much unique as possible....the card, the venue decoration, the gift for guests etc...i think she's spend a lot for her wedding... n for us, she let us do our night gowns to match with the theme colour of her wedding.... so i'll soon go for measurement to tailor-make mine. We just need to follow her colour code n we can make our own dress as long as its knee long. These days i keep on thinking how to make mine....still don't got any idea.......

Nx week i'll be going to Koh Samui with my sis n her friends......this place is once we planned to go, i mean with my ex, but of course we didn't went there coz we broke up ....i once thought that i'll never go to this place in my life..... but well...now i'm going...i guess it's indicating that he is gradually fading out in my life..........n i really do feel so.... which is good......

OK... I still got nothing prepared for my trip yet...not knowing any details ( coz it's booked by my sister) ...not having any schedules....not even knowing abt the details of the place yet.... I guess I gotta start doing some preparation on it......the most important thing is i hope i can hv a harmony trip with my sister .... coz we always end up pissing off every time when we're in a trip.... finger cross this time~