Wednesday, March 04, 2009
我生日....
負能量係會好影響自己影響人嘅...聽日我生日, 今年嘅生日願望係我要學識快樂.
究竟係咪我有問題? 啲朋友好似逐啲逐啲越來越多離開我咁...係我對自己所謂嘅朋友expect太多...定我有問題啲人發覺咗之後怕咗我好想疏遠我?
自從班友仔冇人記得我生日之後我都睇化咗, 之後都冇expect過佢地會幫我慶生..做乜今年要嚟搞我啫? 咁多日子唔約聚會偏偏話要今晚聚吓唱k...頂...聽日我生日喎..一句都冇講過話順便同我慶祝囉...尖沙咀嚟到就嚟喎...你地平時唔就我真係冇所謂...講真我放緊假去邊亦都真係冇所謂...話遠唔去係藉口啫...爭一日我生日都冇人提過一句我個心唔舒服喎...大佬...你地千載難逢咁啱呢個時間得閒都冇人話同我順便慶祝埋我真係唔想去囉... 去到夾硬話自己生日唔俾錢又好似老屈你地咁....唔講你地真係冇人記得我生日仲要我夾埋錢我又唔想咁折墮......你地自己唱飽佢囉咁...橫掂不嬲有冇我都冇分別....(我知我講呢番說話好唔理性, 但我真係好需要發洩一下!)
我自以為我好愛自己嘅朋友, 我自問如果我遇到一個我認為係真正嘅朋友嘅時候我會付出好多, 佢地有嘢開心我又會登佢地開心, 佢地有咩事我又會好擔心, 佢地要人撐我又會第一個企出嚟...但漸漸地我發覺唔係好多人會appreciate我真係交個心出嚟...又或者冇人feel到.....然後我又會因為自己從呢個朋友度得唔到相同嘅待遇而好唔開心.......
彼得係咁...班友仔係咁...竟然連daisy都係咁...daisy仲要係令到我好hurt好失望嗰隻添.....
我明白唔可以用啲朋友同唔同你慶祝生日來評定佢地同你有幾好......會同你慶生嗰啲又未必個個都係真心朋友.....其實講嚟都係發洩吓啫......
我又明白我係一個生活圈子極細嘅宅女想有好多人同我慶祝生日係妙想天開......
有冇人睇得出我嘅問題响邊? 點解啲朋友會走晒?..... 唔該話番俾我知等我思考吓反省吓....
A little bit about me...
@t, wai, lenis
a female
lazy
clumsy
unambitious
loves to travel
easily satisfied
orientationless
can't think too far and too detail
thinks that artistic people are very admirable
smart only in a discussion topic that's outside work
efforts are only put on non-urgent and time consuming self projects
loves carbs very very much and that's why "keeping fit" is the ever-necessary goal in her life but never succeed
putting make-up, shopping, crying in the shower, concentrating into those self projects are her self-cure
Just having a plain ordinary life but still wanna express the feelings on the bits and pieces in it
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