Forever goodbye to the sunny in my heart ﹠蘇開心婚禮
我又因為某人而哭了，没有大哭，但偷泣了一會．．．其實不久之前才剛碰過面， 還以為已經免疫了．．． 但今天再見， 心裡仍有點點難受。
最難受的一刻是他把我介紹給他現在的女朋友時用了我的英文名字．．．一個以前他從來没有用來稱呼過我的名字。就是這一下的陌生讓我的心好酸．．．
好了．．．想要避開一下， 再前去排隊跟新郎新娘影相，他郤又和她排到我後面， 排到我後面都算了本來都看不到，他郤偏偏要叫我一下，又要讓我看着他們十指緊扣．．．他這個人很遲鈍，都不了解一下我的感受．．．大概他高估了我現在對他的接受程度．．．
決定來不來這個婚禮都爭扎了很久， 新郎新娘其實我是很在乎的， 只是要見到他和他的她讓我有點忐忑．．．不過決定要來之後就本着一副戰鬥格的心態要讓從前見過我的人都刮目相看，當然最想是不要輸給他現在的那個她， 所以很用心打扮．．．結果是除了那幾個死黨之外根本没有人認得我，連想跟他們打個招呼都没機會．．．之後他的遲鈍令我好難受， 捱不下去，跟新郎新娘再拍過照道個別後就怱怱走了。
離開了， 淚就忍不住．．．
其實好明白他遲鈍一點也没有錯，只是在這個環璄，別人一個一個都很幸褔了，而從前和我這麼親蜜的人現在郤這麼的陌生．．．我想大概一輩子我也忘不掉對這個人曾經付出過的深刻感情．．．畢竟他跟我分手時我還是很愛他．．．當然，如今很清楚我們跟本相愛不來， 但這刻還是心酸了．．．．．今天突然又再會有這種難受連我自己也有一點意外．．．
actually it's not too bad for things happened today, at least i make it clear to myself that it's a full stop now. we r plain normal hi-bye frds, and glad that i'm settled with this...no more hatred....真的，是對自己的解脫，至少再没有恨．．．
so this is it....no more weeping over this guy...yeahhhhhhh!
也要警愓自己不能走媽媽的路．．．
偷泣過後，真的真的吿訴自己要將對他的所有情感劃上句號．．．我們，還是止於hi-bye friend比較好．．．
這一刻，心情是輕鬆的。
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今天基本上是個超開心的日子， 因為是我最好朋友阿蘇結婚，我想，分手後最值得多謝他的是讓我賺了人生之中一個最重要的朋友蘇saiyeung！ 佢結婚我超開心！:)
posted by wai @ 4:48 pm
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feeling extremely down today
Can i know who is leaving a message again to my last post? Thanks anyway.... i feel very much being supported from that message....Thanks a lot!
Unfortunately, i fall onto the bad mood cycle again today............
it's thus not a gd day for making decision but yet life just goes this way and my sis talk about the trip to Thai today....which we supposed to be going in March.....i'm so so depressed that I couldn't show any interest to discuss about it.....turned out she decided to cut short the Thai trip for another S'pore trip followed right after..... supposed if I m in a better mood i could put some effort in searching for all the possible flight schedules so that i could join her to S'pore coz i'm on my VL anyway....but i really can't afford the hassle today....so...... i gave up the S'pore trip, the Thai trip will hv some days that i need to stay alone coz my sis's coming late and leaving early and..... the mood is then worsen further....................supposed staying alone in a trip shouldn't be a problem for me but today this just doesn't make me feel right.....
i can't totally understand why's that, i wonder if it's because of the family issue recently, my PMS or the horrible dream last night...........
i feel lonely..........
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posted by wai @ 12:04 am
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