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Thursday, January 07, 2010

feeling extremely down today

Can i know who is leaving a message again to my last post? Thanks anyway.... i feel very much being supported from that message....Thanks a lot!

Unfortunately, i fall onto the bad mood cycle again today............

i dreamt the most torturing dream in my life last night, i dreamt of being rxxed.....the dream was so realistic.....the whole thing was just happening outside my gate .... i struggled really hard and try to stamp on the door gate of my hse and my neighbour's but yet no one came out to rescue me. This is all i can remember from the dream but the scene is still so realistic that it made me feel extremely horrible today...... m in a really bad mood..... n it happened several times in the day that i can't help crying suddenly............

it's thus not a gd day for making decision but yet life just goes this way and my sis talk about the trip to Thai today....which we supposed to be going in March.....i'm so so depressed that I couldn't show any interest to discuss about it.....turned out she decided to cut short the Thai trip for another S'pore trip followed right after..... supposed if I m in a better mood i could put some effort in searching for all the possible flight schedules so that i could join her to S'pore coz i'm on my VL anyway....but i really can't afford the hassle today....so...... i gave up the S'pore trip, the Thai trip will hv some days that i need to stay alone coz my sis's coming late and leaving early and..... the mood is then worsen further....................supposed staying alone in a trip shouldn't be a problem for me but today this just doesn't make me feel right.....

i can't totally understand why's that, i wonder if it's because of the family issue recently, my PMS or the horrible dream last night...........

i feel lonely..........

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