Life's going on

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Happy Birthday

Today is that sweetie gal's birthday....i hvn't checked how hv she been right now.....didn't know whether she'd finished her treatment and how's her condition now....

i'm afraid to check coz i don't wanna see the window heading on the screen black out when her status pop up.... coz this means she's already passed away..... i'm kind of reluctant to trying to hear this news.......

anyway.... today is her birthday..... if this is her last one..... of course i hope this is not ( in case for any moment she still pursue living )..... i wish she may hv her happiest birthday ever.....

may God bless her.....

Thursday, September 23, 2010

low swing

just back from shanghai today........

drop back to the lowwwwwwwwwwwwwww swing immediately when i'm home..........wat the hell is going on?

i feel lonely......i wanna screammmmmmmmmmm.......

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

in fact i hv lots to share here...which i'd tried to do it when i was in shanghai but unfortunately blogspot is blocked back in mainland china...as with facebook.....

ok...i still got my luggage to unpack......my laundry to sort out.......my beddings to change........my guidelines for work to write......my bills to pay online.....my fotos to upload and ps.....my floor to mop..... my hse to tidy up.... ...... ...... ...... ...... ...... .... .... ..... ...... .....

and i gotta contact my cuz for her wedding logo and invitation card.........

ok i hv lots to to..........yea........ lots to do......

so........ i'll go for a shower now...... hv a time out ....and .....fix myself....

then i'll come back and deal with all of the above............

G . O . G . E . T . F . I . X .

NOW

Saturday, September 18, 2010

分手的原因

夜裏和一個失戀的朋友聊電話，他訴說着他分手的事。

他說他反覆問了他女孩很多遍是否真的要分手，是否有第三者，是否只是單純的因性格不合而分開，是否她其實也不捨得只是知道他們之間不會有什麼將來所以才忍痛分手．．．

我始乎看得很透了，歸根究底原因只有一個，只這麼一個已經可以解釋了全部：

她．．．．．不愛了～

就這麼簡單，都不愛了，還怎會花心思在你身上？

不想太傷你才說些似是疑非的答案吧～

明知道，就得學會要接受．．．

曾經我都上過很大的一課才學懂了的。

現在是傍觀者，所以心水清得很！所有分手的原因，就是這麼簡單～

Friday, September 03, 2010

檢討報告

上一篇發過之後就一直在做功課，聽音樂好像會分了一點心所以最終還是關了。

其間洗了個澡，吃過一點東西。

一直做到九時半看《公主嫁到》休息一下（最近都追看這個，很好笑，唯有看這個可以讓我的心情輕鬆一下），其間每有廣告時間也有回到電腦前面再寫一點。

之後是甚麼講疾病的節目，因為講眼疾所以又繼續看，有所得着的是知道了那個我常吿訴別人説我想做的矯視手術叫矯視人工晶體植入手術。剛上網搜尋了一下，正統名稱叫「晶體前植入人工晶體手術」。（有興趣者可按下到連結去看看。）

雖然進度不快，但還真的沒有上FACEBOOK，很乖。

這個點子還真有一點警剔作用的。

現在回去做功課，至少今晚夜裏要完成第一份。

總共有三份。

好了，要掛了，現在就去做。

報告完畢。

自我監察

放假在家本來應該要好好趕功課的，但我卻不停上網上FACEBOOK。

下午四時多還末真正做過一點甚麼正經事來，心散到不行。

太過份了，不能容忍。

我想了一個點子：

很白痴地我決定要記錄一下我心散的頻律。

寫完這一篇之後我就一定要專心開始做我的功課了～

一有心散的狀况（尤其是在上FACEBOOK ）就要到這裏來記錄一下，

要讓自己看看自己有多羞恥！

也好讓每次的記錄作為一種自我監察，提醒自己走回岡位。

快要下雨，這種天色和氣味好適合呆在家裏靜靜的做功課

試試放一下音樂有沒有能專心一點

好了，要掛了，該工作了。

希望短時間內沒看到我再上來。

God please lead her way

it's my day off today....but sth about the gal is lingering inside me......

last week, finally her condition was okay to receive our service, i've encountered the service delivery to her twice when i was asked to swap duty with my colleague.....by that time when i saw her, she was weak but seemed ok, at least her appearance was still the lovely gal as in my impression.

yesterday when we called to bring her down for the service, we were told that it had to be suspended because her condition was too poor, so she was being sent down and then sent straight back without having anything done. i was away when she arrived at us......i guess this is a coincidence perfectly arranged by God....when i was back, my colleagues told me that the gal was sooooo ill-looking....very skinny, very dull, with shrunken eyes n cheek......... i feel so heavy-hearted..........i guess i couldn't stay clam and would feel torn if i saw her face-to-face.....

my colleague said, based on her experience, looks like she'll be leaving us ....in terms of days.....and the whole morning my mind isn't peaceful....prolly sth's gonna happen today....

May God give her strength to stay strong as long as she is not giving up....but when she feels really exhausted and when it comes to the right time to set her free from sorrows, please bring her to a better place with lots of joy and happiness....... please take her away peacefully...... without pain......

all through these times, her parents are doing their best to take care of her and stay by her side......so God, if the day comes, please give them strength to stay strong through the sadness.

God please be with her.